Hey y’all! It’s your Uniterrupted Girl...It’s been quite a while since I have shared my heart with you. As much as I would like to give you all the great reasons why I have been quiet, I can’t. I don’t have any reasons…except LIFE. My not knowing how to make myself move in a lot of areas of my life….except for the ones that I have had absolutely NO CHOICE but to move in. See, when you are a woman with a career and family there are certain things that you MUST do daily. You have to show up for your job. You have to show up for your family. You have to take care of those things and do your best daily to sustain them.
I am a mother, and I take that roll very seriously. It is the most important thing that I will ever do in this life. I have three children who are very busy with school, sports, and other extracurricular activities. My oldest and only son is a college student who just about finished with is undergraduate degree. My middle child is a senior in high school and she has recently been accepted into six of the ten colleges that she has applied for. Last but certainly not least is my baby girl, who is a freshman in high school.
As a mother you put your children, their needs and wants before your own. You show up for them in any and every way that you can. Sometimes that means showing up and coaching as well as watching my middle child cheer a couple nights a week, watching my baby girl’s tennis matches, basketball games, or softball games a few times a week, or getting on the road and driving four hours to watch my son on the football field on Saturdays. None of that covers practices, making sure they have meals, checking on their schoolwork and making sure they are on track, and supporting them and making sure they are mentally, physically and emotionally healthy. Not to mention all the things they need that cost. Taking care of them costs a pretty penny. Motherhood is both rewarding and exhausting.
Motherhood is both rewarding and exhausting.
Although I love my children unconditionally and wholeheartedly, being there for them in all the ways they need me does take away from the time I have for myself. So, it makes it quite easy not to show up for myself in all the important ways. It made it very easy not to take the time to share my heart and write a blog entry. It made it very easy not to be able to dedicate what little time I had left to my business, my personal goals, my health, my relationships, my friendships, and my life.
In addition to the busyness of everyday life, my family has suffered an unimaginable, traumatic, and devastating loss. As a family we have all been grieving the loss of someone we all love very much. #LLSJ
Grieving that loss has also contributed to my being in this place of not moving…feeling stuck…
It has led to me, your Uninterrupted Girl, being INTERRUPTED.
Interrupt means to stop the continuous progress of (an activity or process).
So, I have not been writing, I have not been building my business the way I desire to. I have not been working out regularly. I have not been showing up in the way I would normally show up in all the areas of my life except the ones that I am obligated to show up in.
You see, no matter what happens I have an obligation to show up for my family and my job. Other than that, I have not had the mental or emotional strength to even make myself do any more than that on a lot of days.
But, I do know that interruption does not have to be permanent.
There are ways to work yourself out of an interrupted place. It is important to remember:
Do the things that will help you operate at your best level.
You cannot properly take care of others without taking care of yourself.
In my case, I am taking steps to move myself again. I am relying on my faith to keep me grounded. I have been leaning on my family and friends. I have also been seeing a therapist.
3. You can move yourself from a place of interruption into a place of progress.
It is now time to begin again. To build, to share, to be everything that God has created me to be. It is now time to stop allowing the circumstances in my life to keep me from living and sharing from an authentic place.
Interruption does not have to be permanent.
Taking the time to write this is an important step in my journey.
I am a Girl Interrupted…NO MORE!